Matt, where have you been?

Well I have been busy y'all.

Let me just tell you that my first Holiday season on plan has been a disaster.  I am gaining a bit here and there and have already committed to getting going at the first of the year.  You don't have to tell me that I should not wait.  I know, but honestly my mind is so cluttered right now that it is difficult to have the focus that is requires to lose weight.  So why have I lost focus?  Well the Holidays for one, and some personal issues that I prefer not to get into.

The thing is that I have found that when you con concentrate on your weight loss goals and you are seldom distracted it is a much easier path to follow.  Obviously the path becomes rocky and difficult to stay on when your distracted.  I wonder if any of you have found this to be true.

I am trying at this point to be upbeat about my progress but it is difficult.  My stall is now well over 3 months and I am making excuses.  Hopefully I can get the steadfast resolve back in 2009. 

So what else has been going on with me.  Well I can tell you one of the "distractions" has made me very happy.  I am an engaged man now.  I hear the collective sigh of all the ladies out there.  This one got away from you.  You will be happy to know that Carrie and I are extremely happy together and I am engaged to my best friend.  So buck up ladies.  This I can tell you.  There are others like me out there. :-)

Happy Wednesday to all and to all a good night!

Binging on carrots

Well yesterday was pretty clean points wise.  I did have taco bell for dinner in a rush but I was able to do it without going over in points.  No I probably did not cover the good health guidelines, but I was happy.

Today has been good thus far.  Fruit and a chicken blt salad from mcd's.  I will say I am a bit hungry right now but I am putting off my banana till a bit later.  I need to drink a bit more water today to as I am noticing a headache coming on and that would also help with the hunger.

Overall I am feeling pretty good about the week so far.  I am going to try to not overdo things this weekend, but I am making no promises.  We have events planned all weekend.  Football games, birthday dinners, and just weekend stuff.

I am hoping to get in some serious exercise over the weekend though.  Lets hope that happens!

Claw marks on the wagon

First I want to thank you guys for your supportive comments yesterday. My readers, lurkers or not are so supportive. I really feel like am friends with you all.

The claw marks I spoke of are from me trying to get back on the wagon. I will say that I wrote everything down yesterday. I also did great till I got home. Most of the bad stuff has been removed from the house. BUT... I ordered a taco pizza for dinner last night. Genius! Oh and before that I had a whole bunch of the french's dried onion things you put on top of green bean casserole. Also some marshmallows. Basically anything in sight. I was not even that hungry. Thank goodness Carrie stopped me at three slices. I was ready to dig in for more. Tonight the pizza goes in the trash.

So 62 points later I was done! Hole crap 62 points? yep 62! It is what it is. At least I wrote it all down.

So today is a new day. Starting off with water rather than Diet Coke. I am sure some of you understand what a undertaking that is all by itself. I am enjoying some mixed fruit for breakfast. I have to tell you that I really enjoy the frozen fruit for a snack or breakfast. Let face it. I did not get to 400lbs on fruit it would take an act of god to over do it on fruit. Plus it is wildly nutritious. See:

I pick this up at Sam's club in a big bag for about 8.50 for a 6 lb bag and it lasts just about a week. Like I said it is a really good evening snack. ( I know I know, this is coming from the guy who indulged on chips and dip 2 nights ago)

So there you have it. I am going to at least post a recap of my previous day so you guys can give me the swift kick in the butt that I need.

I almost forgot to share this. That would be my boy on the gong!

Well I guess I deserved that

300.8!  Look to your right and you will see that I gave gained 8 lbs since late October.  I did however weigh in last night.  I knew I would gain.  I knew I would be about 300.  I was hoping to be under it but so be it.  But this is the thing.  I went to my sons 4th grade holiday performance which I will have to show you guys just cause he played the GONG!  Anyway back on topic, we came home and after a good clean day of eating I ended up sitting down to some chips and deans french onion dip.  Are you kidding me.  What was I thinking?  Why is it even in the house?

I am in a funk guys.  I was at 301.6 on Aug 26 of this year. In just over 3 months I have managed to lose basically nothing.  My motivation is for crap.

I can tell you that football season has not helped me.  We are talking College not pros just so you guys know.  But every weekend has been food and beer and tailgating.  Just so you all know.  Tailgating is not a key ingredient to success in weight loss.  I have had fun no doubt but I had less fun knowing that I was hurting myself in the weight loss department.

Now there has been an ugly by product of those weekends.  All the great habits I formed from January to August are gone.  I rarely log on to the WW boards.  I have not logged on to track anything in weeks.   I have not been recording my weight.  It is just painful.

I am going to try to refocus today.  Only today and I will worry about tomorrow when it arrives.  Today I will not go off plan.  Today I will track everything I eat.  Today I will exercise 30 minutes.  Finally, today I will remove all the crap food from the house.

Trotting Turkey

Well I made up for not running in the Gobbler Grind by running the Turkey Trot.  It was a slow race, mainly because the track was too small for everyone.  2000 people on a 10 foot wide road.  The race started and it took me at about 90 seconds to get to the start line.  Still walking for another 40 yards or so until we finally started jogging only to slow to a walk again at the first turn.  Then we were back on pace.  Or so I thought.  The first mile was a slow one but I tried to compensate by going a bit faster and that was a mistake.  I had to walk for about 50 yards or so toward the end of mile one.  The rest of the race was pretty relaxed and normal and I finished at about 35:20 adjusting for the time it took to get to the start.  Overall not bad, but not what I would have liked.

Now after that I went on a food induced rampage.  Oh turkey gravy poured from the heavens as we enjoyed not one, but 2 thanksgiving meals with all the fixins (as we call it here in the midwest).  My stomach is just now feeling somewhat normal after the crazy foodness I consumed.  I will make sure I make it to my WW meeting tomorrow so I can stay accountable.  We will be back on track.  get off the couple of lbs I know I gained and get back into a groove.