Wednesday, April 3, 2019


Well I am back I suppose.  I know this was a useful tool before, if only for me.  I am not sure where this blog will go or who exactly I am speaking to but yet again something must be done.  My first start back in 2007 I had hit 400lbs.  I lost over 100 pounds an then proceeded to gain it all back, and then some.  Frankly there is nothing different this time.  The way I figure it the difference needs to be at the finish line, and realizing there is no finish line.  Honestly that is a depressing thought, but until I can figure out how to eat and not lose control that is the reality. 

I have lost 11 pounds in the last week.  That is in the neighborhood of 2.5 %.  That is a healthy loss and I have not been hungry, well not starving.  I have gone back to fruit for breakfast, and avoiding the things I love for lunch.  I have yet to give up beer, but have tried to omit the sweets.  This entire process makes me a little sad that I am starting over, but I need to.  My body tells me that it hurts every single day.  Pain that I have found difficult to hide.  My knees are shot, I have obesity induced plantar fasciitis, I sleep for shit and just overall an not in great health.

So here I go again.  I have goals in mind but I am hesitant to post them for now.  I will see you soon and hopefully have insightful words to give you.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Looking for love in all the wrong places...

What motivates you, or me or anyone for that matter.  It is different for everyone right?  I am not just imagining it right?

Motivation is like a that firefly you just cannot seem to catch.  You would think cancer would be a motivator.  Hell I lost 40 lbs during the whole thing.  What a kick start right.  Umm not so much.

So most recently I witnessed one of my dearest friends compete in and complete an Ironman race.  For those of you who are uninitiated it is 1 day of grueling triathlon.  2.4 miles in the water, 112 miles on the bike followed by a 26.2 mile, yes full marathon, run.  This is inspiring to me.  But have I done anything with that inspiration?  I guess I have eaten a bit better.  But exercise has been completely absent.

Ah motivation where are you.  I should offer a reward and put it up at the local market.  Call Matt if you find it. 

Monday, August 22, 2011

Drumroll Please....

Well as it turns out I was right to be scared.  It has been a whirlwind several weeks, but I am emerging slowly from the other side.

When I last left you I had a colonoscopy, and the doc removed some polyps.  Well it turns out that one of them was cancerous.  Which of course I did not take exactly well.  However.... The GOOD NEWS is that I have already had surgery and they removed about a foot a colon and all of the cancer with it.  It ended up being Stage 1.  That means NO chemo, NO radiation, and surgery is the only thing I have to endure.  Of course I will be visiting an oncologist and the GI doc for followups and still remain nervous.

More than anything though I am optimistic.  I am getting back to losing weight and am going to try hard this time to keep it off.  I am going to be on a mission to let people know about colon cancer and making sure that people pay attention to their crap, and schedule the colonoscopy when the time comes.  Talk to your family members and find out if they have had polyps.  I could go on but the real news today is that I am CANCER FREE.  oh and I have dropped a little over 40 lbs since Sept last year.  :-)

Monday, July 11, 2011

Scared Straight

You would think so.  I know I have been MIA for some time again.  What can I say?  I have no excuse.  All I can do is start again.  Obviously something precipitated this post so I should just get to it.

I went in to the doc after having some blood in my stool, okay, it had been there off and on from some time.  Now I know it is gross to think or talk about but I am damn glad I finally said something.  Doc sent me off to get a colonoscopy and the GI doc found and removed several polyps.  Now this in itself is not great, but it is not good.  What is really not good?  The doc called them large and one was enormous.  So what the hell does all that mean doc?

Doc says that the polyps were benign but they have sent them off to Mayo for more tests.  What?  Sent them where?  Mayo?  As in Mayo Clinic?  As in.....  

Thanks Doc!  So I go back in Wednesday to see what is really up.

So obviously I went out and researched everything I could on polyps and causes and what not.  So every site said a primary cause was genetics.  There were also a whole myriad of different other reasons why someone may develop polyps.  But you know what else was listed on every site?  Thats right folks.   Being overweight and a sedentary lifestyle. 

So here we go again.  I will update numbers on the right as soon as I have them.  I have started the process again.  Eating better and trying to get some exercise.  You would think all the warnings would scare a guy straight.  I just hope a near miss on cancer does.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Back to the gym

Made it back to the gym this morning.  I feel better already.  Just feel like I have more energy, more ready to face the day.

So I did manage to wake up and get to the gym by 5:30.  I hit the elliptical right off and just like a race I was out of the gates quickly.  This of course was followed by me feeling like I was going to die about 2 minutes in.  I slowed down and grabbed the side rails and hung on until I finally caught my breath a bit.  I then got in a rhythm and manged to knock out a total of 30 minutes.  I was tired.  I had to use the side rails several times but I made it.  I started to do some lifting after, but was just to tired.  After a shower I felt refreshed and ready for the day.

I had forgotten that getting up and working out in the morning is a good thing.  It just makes you feel better.  My mood of late has been for crap.  I know that getting some kind of workout in helps.  Just gotta keep it up!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

And this afternoon I will again be a member

As I mentioned before I am rejoining the gym.  I am working on trying to do something about eating right.  I know so many who have been down the path of weight loss only to regain what they thought was gone forever.

So I know what happened.  I know that I stopped exercising and stopped eating right.  I stopped weight watchers, I just stopped.

So what do I do differently this time?  I think the biggest thing is to make sure I go to the gym and exercise.  Burning calories is key and honestly being stronger and in better "shape" is going to be a good thing.  Regardless of weight you have to have a healthy cardio vascular system.  The easiest way to make sure you are healthy in that regard is to work that system out regularly.  Even at my lowest weigh of just under 300 pounds I could run a 5k without stopping and without what I would call extreme effort.  I personally know people who appeared to be in good health who could not accomplish that.

So the gym, check.  Now to the eating side of things.  I counted to points on weight watchers and it taught me soo much, but I just cannot go back to counting points.  I will leave the title alone as it did get me several readers who I abandoned for a long while.  I am going to try to eat clean.  Try to avoid processed foods.  Try to stay low on calories and fat, and high on fiber and protein.  (So basically stay low on points in WW words)

I do want to take a hot second to tell anyone reading who is on WW to not give it up if it is working for you.  Learn as much as you can.  It is a quality program.  People lose a lot of weight using their system.  At this point I just do not think it is right for me.

Thank you to everyone still out there.  I love all of you and hope you are well!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Like a bad penny...

So a new start?  Just got off the phone with Snap Fitness.  The gym I used to go to all that time ago when I lost all that weight.  I will be dropping by on Thursday to pick up my access key and get a shot workout in.  Then it is back at it.  Get out of bed in the morning and get to the gym.

I will keep you updated on the progress. 

Basically what it comes down to is that I have to get back to eating better and getting the exercise my body needs.  I am not sleeping well, my knees hurt again, I am tired all the time, and just feel like crap by the end of the day.

So if you will indulge me this one last time...