Monday, November 10, 2008

I ate it because it was there.

And the roller coaster headed down a to a new low last night.  You want to see what waited for me there?

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We decided after working in the ward for 5ish hours that cooking was out.  So order a pizza.  So far we are good.

Mistake One:  Order a medium (papa johns only does thin crust in large pizzas.

Mistake two:  Order that badboy you see right above rather than my normal Garden fresh

Mistake three:  Oh God how I do not want to admit this but I am so maybe next time I will realize that I was full a long time before I stopped.
Back to Mistake three:  I ate the whole thing.

BY MYSELF.

What that hell was I thinking.  I know I know it is only one meal and one day, pick myself up and move on.

The question is more about motivation.  Why did I eat the whole thing?  Eating an entire pizza in one sitting qualifies as a binge.  I was hungry when I started and ended up miserable when I was done.  I wish I could answer the question.  Right now the best I got was I ate it because it was there.

10 comments:

Kathy said...

Because it was there! And you were tired. And it tasted good. And you were probably eating it too fast to notice when you'd reached the point of feeling full...that takes about 20 minutes. We've all been there. Learn from it and carry on.

Charlie Hills said...

It's because the pizza wanted you.

happyfunpants said...

Were there any Jedis in the room? It could be that they put those thoughts into your head.

In all seriousness, we have ALL been there.

Kudos to you for being honest about it. Hoping for more mindful moments as we progress...

Andrew is getting fit said...

I think realises that it was a bit screwy is part of the process of moving on. I've been doing this whole 'healthy lifestyle' thing for a long time now and I still struggle with this kind of behaviour. It never ends which is sort of why I've attacked the weightloss from the exercise front.

HollyALP said...

Have no fear Matt! If we didn't sometimes step off track, we would forget how important it is to be on track (I mean, you always know, but after an entire pizza you REALLY know). You're wiser for your indulgence - and so are the rest of us! Thank you for sharing. I really feel like I was right there with you - especially for that last slice ::stuffed!:: A little reminder to all of us who could have done the exact same thing, and will maybe now think twice after reading... Just think of the way you would have been eating had you never joined weight watchers. That pizza would have been as routine as getting up in the morning. Leaps and bounds my friend... Leaps and bounds...

SuperDave said...

Brother if I've been there once , I've been there a million times.
Chin -up. Now go eat some celery! :)

john - from fat to fit said...

Whew, been there, done that.

Bikini Envy said...

Blame the pizza. Pizza is eviiiil. :)

SeaShore said...

I get freaked out when I eat a meal like the old days, too. I think, "Why am I still able to do this? Why do I still want to do this?" Usually some emotional reason combined with having let myself get too hungry.

Now do as you say: pick yourself up and move on!

~TMcGee~ said...

Just found your blog, hope you don't mind me commenting. I've been in this same situation so many times, it's embarrassing. Pizza is probably one of the number one foods for me that I have a love/hate relationship with. Kudos to you for blogging about it and recognizing that you probably didn't enjoy eating it all that much (I never do). And congrats on the weight loss so far, that is amazing.

Faith