Monday, October 27, 2008

Why do I do that to myself?

I am beginning to think that I have a problem and this is not a good one to have.  After having a very positive week on plan I "celebrated" over the weekend.  I had a card game Friday night and then the Mizzou game on Saturday.  The problem is not so much with food although I did not make great decisions I did not really over indulge or binge on any food.  I lost control of what I was drinking and 2 days later I am paying for it.

Let me detail this weekend.  Friday was poker night at Matt's house.  Good friends telling stories and losing money.  It was a great time.  I had a beer in my hand ALL NIGHT.  I was drunk.  Not felling down but definitely well past tipsy. 

Then Saturday I went to my sons basketball game and then we were off to Columbia for tailgating and the Mizzou game.  It was Homecoming weekend and we always stay Saturday night for Homecoming weekend.  We tailgated before the game and I always have a drink in my hand, at halftime, more beer, after the game, um you guessed it, MORE BEER.  Back at the Hotel, MORE BEER, of and a few margaritas.

Noticing a pattern here.  I am not sure it was binge drinking, but I defiantly did not know when to say when.  My entire body still hurts.  My mind is a bit foggy still and my stomach is still churning away.  I believe it is going to be necessary for me to forgo alcohol in situations like the.  Situations where I can drink in such excess that I am just hurting my body.  I seem fine having a couple drinks with dinner, but when I am in a social setting where everyone else is drinking I guess I feel the need to partake in excess.

Obviously this has only a bit to do with weight loss.  Alcohol does not help your weight loss efforts.  I feel though that this is more about control.  There are times when I feel out of control when I am eating as well.  There are times when I think we all need to loosen up a bit.  This was not one of those times.

Not quite sure why I am post this other than to be fair with my readers.  I feel like sometimes I omit my struggles from my blog and I think you guys need to know the everyone I have ever spoken to about weight loss talks about struggles.  So I am posting this one.  I also think that by putting this out there and admitting this problem to you guys then maybe I will think better of it next time I am in that situation.

5 comments:

Tony said...

hey, I completely understand. I had a binge day at a bonfire with lots of alcohol and food on Friday. It was not good and I had to work my butt off the next day.

MizFit said...

I know. the entire notion of binge drinking aside for me it is calories there and the way weakened resolve which leads to the going out for cr*p food after.

we've all been there. here's to a good clean eating week!

Diana said...

I had a drinking episode about a month ago. I also didn't know when to say no, and suffered tremendously with the after effects. I was miserable for about two days. Also a pathetic .8 loss that week.

I'm with you on giving up the alcohol. At least until you get to goal.

Andrew is getting fit said...

I can't bring myself to drink that much.

Edwin said...

Matt,

Don't worry about it. The most important thing is to maintain the good habits you've developed during the course of the year. You've done a great job this year. Keep up the good work!