Setbacks

Lets discuss setbacks today shall we. I would like to recount the last three wonderful days to you and explain why this weekend was a big setback whether the scales say so or not. As you can probably tell things got out of hand over the weekend and I am preparing for my first gain of weight during this process. Lets begin with Friday. Friday morning, afternoon and early evening were fine. Friday night however I had a card game at my house and I indulged on the beer, then I also over indulged on the beer. Moving on to Saturday. Saturday we woke up and we on our way to a birthday party for the daughter of a friend of ours. The party was at Godfathers Pizza and I did have 2 slices of pepperoni, now I was not to unhappy about this since I had only eaten a WW muffin that morning. But then came the Em Chamas Brazilian Grill. We went out with a group of friends and had a wonderful time. I guess the best way to describe this place is extremely Atkins diet friendly. The have a bunch of servers walking around with skewers of roasted meat. We were probably there for about 3 hours or so just chatting and enjoying such a nice dinner. We then went out bowling where I again enjoyed a couple of beers. On to Sunday. I know I know you would think that I would have stopped but we will get to that shortly. Sunday was highlighted by a Jack Daniels burger at TGI Fridays for lunch and some late night lasagna for dinner after Carrie and I went to see Juno.

So now that you have the rundown of the weekends events I would like to tell you why it was a serious setback. Lets forget about the scale until Tuesday as there is an outside shot I could still do something crazy and lose weight. Lets instead focus on the fact that I felt like a complete failure after Friday evening. I beat myself up pretty hard about the amount I drank Friday evening and had it not been for Carrie I probably would have shut myself in and skipped the rest of the weekend. This is the first time I felt really guilty over something I had done while on this journey. I wish I could accurately describe how I felt but it is difficult. I actually was not to unhappy with Saturday. I am certain that I went over in points, however it was a planned event and I was ready for it. I made poor dietary choices that day but they were thoroughly enjoyed. Sunday was a complete disaster. This should have been the day when I got back on the wagon and started back down the path to a thinner and healthier me. Instead I decide that we should go to TGI Fridays and have lunch because I had a gift card and then upon arrival instead of sticking with water I order a Margarita. Genius I tell you. Then to top that with a late night huge serving of lasagna well that was a mistake and I know it.

So last night and this morning I have been analyzing my weekend and trying to see where I went wrong. First I was angry with myself for drinking to much at my poker game. A stupid mistake, but how do you fix it. My first thought we be bottled water. I think if I had something there to drink that was not beer I probably would have drank it, or at least drank the beer in more moderation. Saturday quite honestly I would not change one bit. I ate but it was enjoyed. I drank but in moderation. Overall I had an amazing evening and do not regret it one bit. Sunday is where I really think the setback dug it heels in and said I am here to stay. Rather that making healthy choices I said out loud, "Well I have already blown this weekend so I might as well do it up right". I would be curious to know if anyone reading this has ever been sown this road. When I should have gotten back on the plan I decided that instead I would stay off the plan for one more day. I am still trying to figure out while. I am pretty miserable today. I feel tired and my stomach telling me to never do that again. What is it in the brain that allows a person to be so strong of will for so long and then just fail so completely.

I am back on the plan today and will do my best to ride my bike tonight to burn off some of the bazillion calories I took in over the weekend. I am already looking towards next week. I will be back on track and get back to the plan. So I will see you all Tuesday evening to let you know how the weigh in goes.

ADDITION - in all that negativity I should mention that I went out and bought some new jeans over the weekend that were a size smaller and I also was able to comfortably fit into the next fit down. So there is some good news from the weekend that was. Sorry about all the negativity.